#can we just take a moment to realize all sam ever wanted was to be free to choose his own life #and yet they won’t even let him control his own being#he loses agency over his mind and body again and again and again #first by demon blood… possession… addiction … being a vessel #all leading up to LITERALLY LOSING ALL OF HIS AGENCY when lucifer takes over #and he spends two and a half fucking seasons trying to recover from the trauma #by losing control over his mind even more #by losing his soul #by literally going mad#and later by avoiding/not being able to deal with it on purpose (see amelia) #and the MOMENT he started to become his own person again #the MOMENT he saw possibilities to do it his way #they took it away.. AGAIN #AGAIN something is messing with his body (and mind??) AND IT WONT EVER FUCKING STOP #and thats the story of sam winchester #(wanted: a life.. given: not even a body and mind that were truly his) (via)
